Hopes and Reality

     Hopes and expectations are sweet, but reality often is not. 

     Time to time, I remind myself of the dreams that I've dreamed during my military service. Some small and some grandiose goals that I have planned to achieve after transition. For instance, I would have studied Korean history well so I could get a certificate. Or I would have traveled from Seoul to Busan, or the seaside roads of Jeju island on a bike alone. One of the bigger dreams could be the one with me going to Turkey to meet my pals there and travel a bit. 

     Thinking of these dreams make me smile; that it reminds me of the days full of dreams and no stench of sarcasm from my heart. But there is also bitterness inside the same dreams that make me feel nauseated the latter minute. The reality of these dreams not having been accomplished. 

     Today, I was at the verge of applying for JTBC internship 2014 as a reporter. Writing of resume was going very fluently. No obstructions, nothing to hide, nothing to make up. But things changed as I was trying to report my past experience. "NONE". I've just been curious on what I have done so far, during my junior year. First year of my transition from the army, first year of studying politics and only a couple years before the commencement : "NONE". Only thing I remember that has been going on with my life this year is the game League of Legends, and the thought of this made me feel pretty abysmal. 

     Summing up, it has become crucial for me to quit the LOL and take standardized tests so show that I am actually worth something.